September 16, 2011
1. Newblog2011: 09/16/11 The times at which I publish what I write don't mean anything/I am capable of communicating without code.
The times at which I publish what I write don’t mean anything. I don’t know how I could plan to publish anything at a certain time, even if I wanted to do so.
As I’ve said before, being homeless means that I’m always on someone else’s schedule. If I’m able to get to a computer at 8:00 a.m., I’m beating the crowd to use it at certain places. That also means that the times at which I publish things from 8:00 a.m. to 8:59 p.m. will begin with the number 8.
If I use the Internet in the afternoon, at 1:00 p.m., 2:00 p.m., or 4:00 p.m., that’s usually because I’ve completed other tasks, such as getting food that is served by a shelter on the shelter’s schedule. Those times are also before some of the latest times at which I need to leave whatever I’m doing and start back to a shelter where I’ll either be in a lottery for a bed, get a bed, not get a bed because the shelter’s full and then have to find another shelter to stay for the night, or be bussed to the shelter where I’ll sleep. The configuration of that process and the times at which I have to do things depend on the schedule of each shelter.
I did miss dinner last night; they give out sandwiches to people who get to Quincy on the last bus, which was the bus I had to take by the time I walked the hour or more that it takes to get back from where I was yesterday afternoon. Everybody gets one sandwich, somewhere between 9:00 p.m. and 10:00 p.m..
When I take the late bus, it also usually means that I have too much to do at the shelter to get to sleep before 10 or 11 p.m., and sometimes it’s later than that. I usually wake up a lot; there still aren’t anything like enough blankets for everyone at the Boston Public Health Commission shelter in Quincy, so I woke up a lot last night in order to rewrap myself in the second sheet of the 2 that I had. It was much colder last night than it has been since I've been in Boston.
I was up before 6:00 a.m..
Yesterday, when I was ready to publish the essay that I ended up publishing at 5:23 p.m., I saw what time it was and hesitated. However, I’d already read the essay through and it looked as if it were ready to be published.
When I was about to publish the page after that, I saw that the time was 5:27 p.m.. If I hesitated then, it was because I thought that publishing it at that time was likely to get me maligned by the harassing conglomerate and those who support that conglomerate, who would say that I was playing 2 men. I thought it wouldn't hurt to read the essay through again before I published it. Once I'd read it again and felt it was ready to be published, I saw that the time was 5:28 p.m.. My reaction was a feeling of dismay, but I published the page at 5:28 p.m., because 5:28 p.m. was the accurate time at which I thought it was ready to be published.
If I had published it at 5:27 p.m., I would have been maligned. Publishing it at 5:28 p.m. has also had bad effects. If I had published it at 5:29 p.m. or 5:30 p.m., I would have been maligned, also.
Let's review the times at which I could have published everything I ended up publishing between 5:23 p.m. and 5:28 p.m. last night, and consider what the reaction of the harassing conglomerate would have been:
5:23 p.m.
5:24 p.m.
5:25 p.m.
5:26 p.m.
5:27 p.m.
5:28 p.m.
5:29 p.m.
5:30 p.m.
There were also these times at which I could have published what I wrote, if I had added minutes onto the process and given the beginning of my hour-long walk back to the shelter in Boston from which I got bussed to Quincy an even later start time than it ended up having:
5:31 p.m.
5:32 p.m.
5:33 p.m.
5:34 p.m.
5:35 p.m.
Do I really need to keep going with that list in order to illustrate the lack of feasibility of worrying about the times at which I publish things?
Trying to avoid publishing things at certain times doesn't do me or anyone else any good. Time is time; it is a fact. One of the things that I have found really objectionable is the skewing of facts in things such as news stories, which is done so that the stories can be used as code.
It's not as if you can write your way around a time, or avoid mentioning it if you need to record the time at which you publish things or document the times at which you did things or when events that you're writing about occurred.
There are also words that are so common that you can't or shouldn't have to write your way around them. I guess I'll try to stay consistent with how I've tried to handle that issue, and say here that there is no code intended by me anywhere on this blog page, and there wasn't yesterday, either, or the day before that, and so on. I was not exactly inconsistent about that even several months ago when my consistency about it was a question; accurately reporting facts and allowing an interpretation to be made from them isn't exactly the same thing as using code. It may not have been THE MOST HONEST thing I ever did, but I then worked on dealing with that issue, worked on being consistent, and am now saying again that if I don't say that code is there, it's not there. Maybe my saying this in this way is a slight change from how I've talked about it in the past, so I'll say it again because it's true: if I don't say that there's code in something that I write, it's not there. I don't want to spend my life clarifying the use of very common words every few seconds. Sometimes I'll do it if I feel it's really vital that I make a clarification, but I think that by now I've clarified a lot of my usage of the common words that have been recognized as code over the past year. I've done that in several instances, and I may do it again, but for the most part, I feel it's enough by now to go with the assumption that if I don't say that there's code in something I do or say, then there isn't code there.
Everyone should understand by now what my feelings about the issues are. I've written about them a lot. I don't have to spend my time writing about issues such as child molestation; I don't have children, don't work with children, and have never worked with children. Writing about what's been going on takes time and effort. There are other things I could be doing with that time; I could be napping, for example. Some of the day shelters have nap rooms. I could be reading a book that I like. If I have some extra energy, which I usually don't because being homeless is stressful, because I use a lot of energy walking from place to place, because I use a lot of energy carrying all of my things with me because there aren't any lockers available and I'm on the waiting list for one, because I use a lot of energy keeping my temper and finding creative ways to respond to being abused and lied to, I could use that energy to do a lot of other things that would be more enjoyable than writing about any of the issues that I write about that don't directly affect me.
I have no reason to try to undermine the work that I've done on those issues by putting code words or code times in what I write.
The times at which I publish things don't mean anything. If I want to go out with someone, I am capable of saying so, and I don't need to use code in order to say it.
It is someone else's turn to use the computer now. I've said what I had to say, and I want to leave the computer free for her if she decides to walk upstairs, so that I don't have to sit here and wait for Weebly to publish and then log off and make her wait through all of that, also.
Copyright L. Kochman, September 16, 2011 @ 11:38 a.m./addition @ 11:40 a.m.
1. Newblog2011: 09/16/11 The times at which I publish what I write don't mean anything/I am capable of communicating without code.
The times at which I publish what I write don’t mean anything. I don’t know how I could plan to publish anything at a certain time, even if I wanted to do so.
As I’ve said before, being homeless means that I’m always on someone else’s schedule. If I’m able to get to a computer at 8:00 a.m., I’m beating the crowd to use it at certain places. That also means that the times at which I publish things from 8:00 a.m. to 8:59 p.m. will begin with the number 8.
If I use the Internet in the afternoon, at 1:00 p.m., 2:00 p.m., or 4:00 p.m., that’s usually because I’ve completed other tasks, such as getting food that is served by a shelter on the shelter’s schedule. Those times are also before some of the latest times at which I need to leave whatever I’m doing and start back to a shelter where I’ll either be in a lottery for a bed, get a bed, not get a bed because the shelter’s full and then have to find another shelter to stay for the night, or be bussed to the shelter where I’ll sleep. The configuration of that process and the times at which I have to do things depend on the schedule of each shelter.
I did miss dinner last night; they give out sandwiches to people who get to Quincy on the last bus, which was the bus I had to take by the time I walked the hour or more that it takes to get back from where I was yesterday afternoon. Everybody gets one sandwich, somewhere between 9:00 p.m. and 10:00 p.m..
When I take the late bus, it also usually means that I have too much to do at the shelter to get to sleep before 10 or 11 p.m., and sometimes it’s later than that. I usually wake up a lot; there still aren’t anything like enough blankets for everyone at the Boston Public Health Commission shelter in Quincy, so I woke up a lot last night in order to rewrap myself in the second sheet of the 2 that I had. It was much colder last night than it has been since I've been in Boston.
I was up before 6:00 a.m..
Yesterday, when I was ready to publish the essay that I ended up publishing at 5:23 p.m., I saw what time it was and hesitated. However, I’d already read the essay through and it looked as if it were ready to be published.
When I was about to publish the page after that, I saw that the time was 5:27 p.m.. If I hesitated then, it was because I thought that publishing it at that time was likely to get me maligned by the harassing conglomerate and those who support that conglomerate, who would say that I was playing 2 men. I thought it wouldn't hurt to read the essay through again before I published it. Once I'd read it again and felt it was ready to be published, I saw that the time was 5:28 p.m.. My reaction was a feeling of dismay, but I published the page at 5:28 p.m., because 5:28 p.m. was the accurate time at which I thought it was ready to be published.
If I had published it at 5:27 p.m., I would have been maligned. Publishing it at 5:28 p.m. has also had bad effects. If I had published it at 5:29 p.m. or 5:30 p.m., I would have been maligned, also.
Let's review the times at which I could have published everything I ended up publishing between 5:23 p.m. and 5:28 p.m. last night, and consider what the reaction of the harassing conglomerate would have been:
5:23 p.m.
5:24 p.m.
5:25 p.m.
5:26 p.m.
5:27 p.m.
5:28 p.m.
5:29 p.m.
5:30 p.m.
There were also these times at which I could have published what I wrote, if I had added minutes onto the process and given the beginning of my hour-long walk back to the shelter in Boston from which I got bussed to Quincy an even later start time than it ended up having:
5:31 p.m.
5:32 p.m.
5:33 p.m.
5:34 p.m.
5:35 p.m.
Do I really need to keep going with that list in order to illustrate the lack of feasibility of worrying about the times at which I publish things?
Trying to avoid publishing things at certain times doesn't do me or anyone else any good. Time is time; it is a fact. One of the things that I have found really objectionable is the skewing of facts in things such as news stories, which is done so that the stories can be used as code.
It's not as if you can write your way around a time, or avoid mentioning it if you need to record the time at which you publish things or document the times at which you did things or when events that you're writing about occurred.
There are also words that are so common that you can't or shouldn't have to write your way around them. I guess I'll try to stay consistent with how I've tried to handle that issue, and say here that there is no code intended by me anywhere on this blog page, and there wasn't yesterday, either, or the day before that, and so on. I was not exactly inconsistent about that even several months ago when my consistency about it was a question; accurately reporting facts and allowing an interpretation to be made from them isn't exactly the same thing as using code. It may not have been THE MOST HONEST thing I ever did, but I then worked on dealing with that issue, worked on being consistent, and am now saying again that if I don't say that code is there, it's not there. Maybe my saying this in this way is a slight change from how I've talked about it in the past, so I'll say it again because it's true: if I don't say that there's code in something that I write, it's not there. I don't want to spend my life clarifying the use of very common words every few seconds. Sometimes I'll do it if I feel it's really vital that I make a clarification, but I think that by now I've clarified a lot of my usage of the common words that have been recognized as code over the past year. I've done that in several instances, and I may do it again, but for the most part, I feel it's enough by now to go with the assumption that if I don't say that there's code in something I do or say, then there isn't code there.
Everyone should understand by now what my feelings about the issues are. I've written about them a lot. I don't have to spend my time writing about issues such as child molestation; I don't have children, don't work with children, and have never worked with children. Writing about what's been going on takes time and effort. There are other things I could be doing with that time; I could be napping, for example. Some of the day shelters have nap rooms. I could be reading a book that I like. If I have some extra energy, which I usually don't because being homeless is stressful, because I use a lot of energy walking from place to place, because I use a lot of energy carrying all of my things with me because there aren't any lockers available and I'm on the waiting list for one, because I use a lot of energy keeping my temper and finding creative ways to respond to being abused and lied to, I could use that energy to do a lot of other things that would be more enjoyable than writing about any of the issues that I write about that don't directly affect me.
I have no reason to try to undermine the work that I've done on those issues by putting code words or code times in what I write.
The times at which I publish things don't mean anything. If I want to go out with someone, I am capable of saying so, and I don't need to use code in order to say it.
It is someone else's turn to use the computer now. I've said what I had to say, and I want to leave the computer free for her if she decides to walk upstairs, so that I don't have to sit here and wait for Weebly to publish and then log off and make her wait through all of that, also.
Copyright L. Kochman, September 16, 2011 @ 11:38 a.m./addition @ 11:40 a.m.