June 14, 2011 @ 6:35 p.m.
--Homeland Security and Graduates of Nasty Librarian School
The Homeland Security van drove by exactly at the moment when I walked out of the library this afternoon. That makes me wonder a few things:
Is the federal government following me around and watching me in person all the time? Where they watching me to see what would happen at the library?
What kind of rewards did the Aldrich library in Barre, which is supposed to be a public library, get when I reported online that I had been harassed by staff there until I'd lost my temper? Did all the staff get raises? Did the library get money from the state and federal governments?
--Is it Slammer Time? (pun on code)
I'm wondering if the prosecutor is planning to try to get me evaluated again by a court-appointed psychiatrist in order to try to have me declared competent to stand trial, so that I can be prosecuted for assault.
Legally, I can't be prosecuted as things are now because when I was at the state hospital, a court-appointed psychiatrist said that I wasn't competent to stand trial.
I've taken NO ADVANTAGE AT ALL of having gotten that opinion from the court-appointed psychiatrist. I could have gotten an Order of Non-Hospitalization, which would have committed me to the care of the Mental Health Commissioner
(as I write this, the TV is on and the evening news for WCAX is on; it's the weather lady, Sharon Meyer, talking about "debris in the water." I heard bits and pieces of other stories that were on before that, something about flooding....it's not original.)
care of the Mental Health Commissioner for a few months to a year. An ONH would have automatically dismissed the charge and would have meant that I could have left the hospital either to go to live in a group home or as soon as I found a place to go.
I also could have applied for disability benefits based on my diagnosis from the state hospital psychiatrist that I had either a "psychotic order non-specific," or "schizophrenia," which he was going with for a while. By now, I could have spent a few months collecting a check for at least $600 a month (no code) from the government based on my "psychiatric disability." Not only was it suggested to me at the state hospital that I apply for those benefits, for a while I was pressured to do it and I refused.
I have had absolutely no cash at all since I've been out of the hospital; none. I have food stamps, and I stay at the shelter for free. When I say that I have NO cash, I mean that I don't have a dollar bill.
The only kind of money I have sought is the kind you get from legitimate work.
When I was at VSH, they had a work program for patients that I did until I got harassed by the staff out of the Treatment Mall. I would dust or roll silverware, or scrub things off the walls, for minimum wage which is I think about $8.00 an hour (no code). Until I got persecuted out of the Treatment Mall, I could work there a few hours a week; I usually didn't get more than 3 at the most, but I would have worked all day, every day if I could have. (no code)
Also when I was at VSH, and being emotionally abused with "fish" and "cheese," water references, the incessant, fake coughing, and more, around the clock; most if not all of the staff knew about my being bullied by celebrities and the government, the media and corporations. I would get harassed and then if I objected, I would be told that I was delusional; they even said that my filling out grievances about all of the incidents meant that I was delusional, that I was imagining all of the harassment. They thought it was hilarious to do that, to emotionally abuse me and then say I was delusional for objecting to it or getting angry.
It may be that during the time that the last psychiatrist I had there was planning to take me to court so that he could get permission to get me involuntarily medicated, he didn't know about the larger harassment situation outside of the hospital and did think that my reports of it in the hospital were exaggerated. That didn't stop him from harassing me himself; when he thought I was schizophrenic and imagining the harassment, he would say things.
The involuntary medication he was thinking of were all antipsychotics; most likely, he would have sought to get me medicated with Haldol. What it means to be involuntarily medicated is that if you refuse to take the medication by mouth, they give it to you with a needle, in your butt, with psychiatric technicians either holding you still or standing nearby to hold you still. As far as I know, psychiatric technicians at the state hospital don't need any kind of college degree or training past a few weeks of training done at the hospital after they get hired.
All antipsychotics, the old ones and the new ones, (no code) cause tardive dyskinesia, which involves permanent, involuntary movements throughout your body. It doesn't go away even when you stop the medication; you have it forever. There are medications that are supposed to prevent it that you take along with the antipsychotics, but there's no guarantee that they work. Plus, it makes you dopey and your brain doesn't work nearly as well (no code).
When I was being threatened with involuntary medication at the state hospital, my lawyer asked the court for an outside evaluation from a psychiatrist to give an alternate opinion about diagnosis. The judge refused to have the court pay for it, which meant that I couldn't get it. Not only my lawyer but the lawyer he consulted with at Legal Aid interpreted the relevant statute to say that the court should pay for it, and still, I didn't get it.
The doctor at VSH finally quit threatening to get me involuntarily medicated, and I was released to a shelter.
What I'm wondering is if the prosecutor is now going to try to get me evaluated again so that he can get me declared competent to stand trial, with the intention of having me convicted for assault. I couldn't get a second opinion from an outside psychiatrist regarding diagnosis when I was in the hospital, but the prosecutor can get one for the purposes of trying to put me in jail?
Is that the prosecution's plan, as guided or pressured by the state and federal government, among other harassers?
@ 7:08 p.m. (no code)
I don't have time to edit all of the above; I may not get time to do it.
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June 14, 2011 @9:32 p.m. (no code--I'm not going to keep writing that.)
--"Clean Up Your Act Day" in Barre
The "Clean Up Your Act Day" poster that I've been seeing in a few store windows lately; today, I saw it right next to a poster for an approaching event to end homelessness in a store window. The implication couldn't have been plainer.
(June 15, 2011 @6:40 p.m. I've removed some of what I first wrote here.)
--More harassment at the shelter
An older woman who's been here for not more than a month just said to someone in the common area "The wet noodle is too wet tonight." I looked over to see her with a big, gross smile on her face as she leered toward the person she'd spoken to.
I've really never been anything but nice to her, despite the fact that she has a cough that sounds as if her lungs are rotting out; I'm wondering if she's sick in a way that will make everyone around her sick or not? I have never heard a cough like that in my life; it's not even like the loud, fake coughing that people do when they're trying to harass me.
Health Inspector? Can we get one of those? Lemme guess; he or she would say that everything here is fine, despite the fact that everyone here gets the same, horrible virus every few weeks, the place would get a perfect rating except for non-existent flood damage, and then the shelter would get money that it doesn't deserve.
Here's something; bed bugs are NOT A MYTH. They are NOT A MYTH.
Here's more harassment happening among some of the men behind me:
"I just go with the flow. It's kind of like being in the ocean, with the fish."
That particular guy; I've almost never heard him talk before. He usually just sits there and giggles to himself.
@9:40 p.m.
--Clark's Feed Store
Clark's Feed Store, in Barre, also has the Aldrich harassment/pedophilia "Summer Authors" poster in its window. In addition, there's a poster that says:
"EGG SHOOT
Sunday, June 12
Barre Fish & Game Club
Averill & Gun Club Roads
Directions (www.barrefishandgameclub.com)
This shoot is designed to be fun, casual and competitive. It is a good opportunity to shoot tactical and varmint rifles at targets that require extreme accuracy. Rules are minimal but are required for fair play.
ALL SHOOTING WILL BE AT 200 METERS.
Sponsors:
Parros Police Supplies, Inc.
Big D's Guns: Guns & Accessories
R & L Archery
M & R Guns & Ammo"
---------------
Here's some of what
Varmint.
Ha ha ha ha ha ha ha!
Let me rephrase that:
HA HA HA HA HA HA HA!
------------------------
The poster under that one says:
"Support Veterans of Foreign Wars
Win a trip to Fenway for you and 50 friends!
Red Sox vs. Yankees."
--------------------
Copyright L. Kochman June 14, 2011 @ 10:00 p.m.
--Homeland Security and Graduates of Nasty Librarian School
The Homeland Security van drove by exactly at the moment when I walked out of the library this afternoon. That makes me wonder a few things:
Is the federal government following me around and watching me in person all the time? Where they watching me to see what would happen at the library?
What kind of rewards did the Aldrich library in Barre, which is supposed to be a public library, get when I reported online that I had been harassed by staff there until I'd lost my temper? Did all the staff get raises? Did the library get money from the state and federal governments?
--Is it Slammer Time? (pun on code)
I'm wondering if the prosecutor is planning to try to get me evaluated again by a court-appointed psychiatrist in order to try to have me declared competent to stand trial, so that I can be prosecuted for assault.
Legally, I can't be prosecuted as things are now because when I was at the state hospital, a court-appointed psychiatrist said that I wasn't competent to stand trial.
I've taken NO ADVANTAGE AT ALL of having gotten that opinion from the court-appointed psychiatrist. I could have gotten an Order of Non-Hospitalization, which would have committed me to the care of the Mental Health Commissioner
(as I write this, the TV is on and the evening news for WCAX is on; it's the weather lady, Sharon Meyer, talking about "debris in the water." I heard bits and pieces of other stories that were on before that, something about flooding....it's not original.)
care of the Mental Health Commissioner for a few months to a year. An ONH would have automatically dismissed the charge and would have meant that I could have left the hospital either to go to live in a group home or as soon as I found a place to go.
I also could have applied for disability benefits based on my diagnosis from the state hospital psychiatrist that I had either a "psychotic order non-specific," or "schizophrenia," which he was going with for a while. By now, I could have spent a few months collecting a check for at least $600 a month (no code) from the government based on my "psychiatric disability." Not only was it suggested to me at the state hospital that I apply for those benefits, for a while I was pressured to do it and I refused.
I have had absolutely no cash at all since I've been out of the hospital; none. I have food stamps, and I stay at the shelter for free. When I say that I have NO cash, I mean that I don't have a dollar bill.
The only kind of money I have sought is the kind you get from legitimate work.
When I was at VSH, they had a work program for patients that I did until I got harassed by the staff out of the Treatment Mall. I would dust or roll silverware, or scrub things off the walls, for minimum wage which is I think about $8.00 an hour (no code). Until I got persecuted out of the Treatment Mall, I could work there a few hours a week; I usually didn't get more than 3 at the most, but I would have worked all day, every day if I could have. (no code)
Also when I was at VSH, and being emotionally abused with "fish" and "cheese," water references, the incessant, fake coughing, and more, around the clock; most if not all of the staff knew about my being bullied by celebrities and the government, the media and corporations. I would get harassed and then if I objected, I would be told that I was delusional; they even said that my filling out grievances about all of the incidents meant that I was delusional, that I was imagining all of the harassment. They thought it was hilarious to do that, to emotionally abuse me and then say I was delusional for objecting to it or getting angry.
It may be that during the time that the last psychiatrist I had there was planning to take me to court so that he could get permission to get me involuntarily medicated, he didn't know about the larger harassment situation outside of the hospital and did think that my reports of it in the hospital were exaggerated. That didn't stop him from harassing me himself; when he thought I was schizophrenic and imagining the harassment, he would say things.
The involuntary medication he was thinking of were all antipsychotics; most likely, he would have sought to get me medicated with Haldol. What it means to be involuntarily medicated is that if you refuse to take the medication by mouth, they give it to you with a needle, in your butt, with psychiatric technicians either holding you still or standing nearby to hold you still. As far as I know, psychiatric technicians at the state hospital don't need any kind of college degree or training past a few weeks of training done at the hospital after they get hired.
All antipsychotics, the old ones and the new ones, (no code) cause tardive dyskinesia, which involves permanent, involuntary movements throughout your body. It doesn't go away even when you stop the medication; you have it forever. There are medications that are supposed to prevent it that you take along with the antipsychotics, but there's no guarantee that they work. Plus, it makes you dopey and your brain doesn't work nearly as well (no code).
When I was being threatened with involuntary medication at the state hospital, my lawyer asked the court for an outside evaluation from a psychiatrist to give an alternate opinion about diagnosis. The judge refused to have the court pay for it, which meant that I couldn't get it. Not only my lawyer but the lawyer he consulted with at Legal Aid interpreted the relevant statute to say that the court should pay for it, and still, I didn't get it.
The doctor at VSH finally quit threatening to get me involuntarily medicated, and I was released to a shelter.
What I'm wondering is if the prosecutor is now going to try to get me evaluated again so that he can get me declared competent to stand trial, with the intention of having me convicted for assault. I couldn't get a second opinion from an outside psychiatrist regarding diagnosis when I was in the hospital, but the prosecutor can get one for the purposes of trying to put me in jail?
Is that the prosecution's plan, as guided or pressured by the state and federal government, among other harassers?
@ 7:08 p.m. (no code)
I don't have time to edit all of the above; I may not get time to do it.
------------------------------------------------
June 14, 2011 @9:32 p.m. (no code--I'm not going to keep writing that.)
--"Clean Up Your Act Day" in Barre
The "Clean Up Your Act Day" poster that I've been seeing in a few store windows lately; today, I saw it right next to a poster for an approaching event to end homelessness in a store window. The implication couldn't have been plainer.
(June 15, 2011 @6:40 p.m. I've removed some of what I first wrote here.)
--More harassment at the shelter
An older woman who's been here for not more than a month just said to someone in the common area "The wet noodle is too wet tonight." I looked over to see her with a big, gross smile on her face as she leered toward the person she'd spoken to.
I've really never been anything but nice to her, despite the fact that she has a cough that sounds as if her lungs are rotting out; I'm wondering if she's sick in a way that will make everyone around her sick or not? I have never heard a cough like that in my life; it's not even like the loud, fake coughing that people do when they're trying to harass me.
Health Inspector? Can we get one of those? Lemme guess; he or she would say that everything here is fine, despite the fact that everyone here gets the same, horrible virus every few weeks, the place would get a perfect rating except for non-existent flood damage, and then the shelter would get money that it doesn't deserve.
Here's something; bed bugs are NOT A MYTH. They are NOT A MYTH.
Here's more harassment happening among some of the men behind me:
"I just go with the flow. It's kind of like being in the ocean, with the fish."
That particular guy; I've almost never heard him talk before. He usually just sits there and giggles to himself.
@9:40 p.m.
--Clark's Feed Store
Clark's Feed Store, in Barre, also has the Aldrich harassment/pedophilia "Summer Authors" poster in its window. In addition, there's a poster that says:
"EGG SHOOT
Sunday, June 12
Barre Fish & Game Club
Averill & Gun Club Roads
Directions (www.barrefishandgameclub.com)
This shoot is designed to be fun, casual and competitive. It is a good opportunity to shoot tactical and varmint rifles at targets that require extreme accuracy. Rules are minimal but are required for fair play.
ALL SHOOTING WILL BE AT 200 METERS.
Sponsors:
Parros Police Supplies, Inc.
Big D's Guns: Guns & Accessories
R & L Archery
M & R Guns & Ammo"
---------------
Here's some of what
Varmint.
Ha ha ha ha ha ha ha!
Let me rephrase that:
HA HA HA HA HA HA HA!
------------------------
The poster under that one says:
"Support Veterans of Foreign Wars
Win a trip to Fenway for you and 50 friends!
Red Sox vs. Yankees."
--------------------
Copyright L. Kochman June 14, 2011 @ 10:00 p.m.