July 11, 2011
I went to the McFarland state office building in Barre this morning. It has offices such as the Department of Labor and the Department of Health. The display about how to avoid getting Lyme disease has been replaced by a display covered with pictures of children at the beach and in swimming pools. Ostensibly, its purpose is to inform people about child safety at those places. There are also pamphlets on the table that say “FIGHT BAC,” which I think were about bacteria in swimming areas.
There was a handmade sign that said something such as “6 Tips” for the subject matter of the display. The “6” was written in red, whatever that was supposed to mean.
I went to the upstairs bathroom, which had a “Wet Floor” sign in it; there was no wet floor in the bathroom. I’d really had enough, and I couldn’t help myself from taking the sign and throwing it out of the bathroom door.
A minute later, I opened the door again and saw that one of the female workers was looking out of the window which had had a pedophilia-supportive display in it the last time that I was in the building. Much of that display seems to have been dismantled before I got there this morning. I went out into the hallway, picked up the wet floor sign, and said to her “There’s no wet floor in that bathroom, and I’ve goddamn had enough.” She nodded, and then someone else in that office got on the phone.
I took the sign downstairs to where I had seen the cleaning lady with her cart. The cleaning lady was by the other bathroom, which had 2 Wet Floor signs stacked next to each other outside the door. There was another Wet Floor sign on her cart. I put the sign I was holding on the cart next to the other sign and said “This is where this goes.”
I went back upstairs to the bathroom and saw that the plastic tray for free condoms, which was empty for the first, few months that I spent time in that building, had a condom in the front that said “Lucky Boy” in a blue package. The other condoms behind it were “Her Pleasure” in lavender and then more “Magnum” condoms.
“Lucky Boy” condoms? There’s a clinic for children a few feet away from that bathroom. The welfare department is also in that building; it’s supposed to be safe for women and children, especially impoverished ones.
I went into the Department of Labor. After I’d sat down at a computer, one of the male staffpeople got a phone call at his desk. I heard him say “Security” a couple of times.
I got up and ready to leave. He said “Lena, can you please wait a minute?”
I said “No” and left the office.
He’s someone who’s made plenty of harassing comments and conversation around me in the past.
He followed me out of the office. As I was about to leave the building, he called to me again from the top of the stairs “Can you please wait a minute?”
I left.
I’ve been wondering if the reason that there are more women who want pedophilia to become legal than I first thought there would be is that the opportunity to have sex with children is something that those women see as compensation for the fact that women are losing everything to men because of what’s happened over the past year and a half. It seems to me that in a male-dominated society, anything which makes men objects of sexual desire rather than the only initiators of sexual activity is seen as an affront to male power and is therefore condemned.
As women’s lives continue to be undermined, in school, at work, in their relationships and more, perhaps there are women who are thinking “At least there will always be children whom I can victimize.”
Copyright L. Kochman July 11, 2011 @ 10:56 a.m./edit @ 11:00 a.m.
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July 11, 2011
Here's the first part of the e-mail that the director of the Kellogg-Hubbard Library, which is the Montpelier library, sent me on July 8, 2011:
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Hello, Lena,
Thank you for the email, it was helpful to have your perspective. I am sorry that you feel upset by our rules and the staff who enforce them. These rules apply to anyone who chooses to use the public access computers here. I hope the attached reply will make the library's position and perspective clear just as you have made your position and perspective clear.
Thank you again for sharing your concerns.
Respectfully,
Robin Sales,
Library Director
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Here's what the attached document that she refers to in the message says:
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KELLOGG--HUBBARD LIBRARY 135 Main Street
Montpelier, Vermont 05602-2992
Phone/Fax 802.223.3338
www.kellogghubbard.org
July 8, 2011
Dear Lena,
Thank you for the email, it was helpful to have your perspective. I am sorry that you feel upset by our rules and the staff who enforce them. These rules apply to anyone who uses the public access computers here. (Average daily use of the internet computers at the Kellogg –Hubbard Library is around 138 people. ) Often patrons are allowed to work beyond the half hour limit that we must enforce when it is busy at the librarian’s discretion. However, even if some computers are free patrons are asked to leave after a prolonged session of an hour or an hour and a half. This ensures that other patrons who may want to use the computer that day have the opportunity to do so.
“When using the terminals, you agree to the following:
§ Sign in for a half hour session on the terminal you plan to use.
§ If you need additional time, check with staff.
§ You are responsible for all printouts you generate.To avoid errors use print Preview or ask for assistance. Pick up printouts at the circ desk.
§ You must end your session when asked to do so by the library staff.
§ No more than two people per computer. Behavior must not disrupt other patrons. “
Patrons agree to respect these terms when they sign in to use the computer. Access to “the Library's computer network and Internet is a privilege, not a right. …Failure to comply with this policy and its procedures will result in the forfeiture of library Internet or general library privileges.”[1]
On the day in question, you did not respect the highlighted rules above or the request of the library staff, and you also created a public disturbance with your reaction to that request.
If you can respect the library rules and the staff, you are welcome to continue to visit the Kellogg-Hubbard Library and use the computers. Failure to respect the library rules and the staff will result in a loss of internet privileges, and in some cases may lead to a loss of library privileges. If you are unable to abide by these rules, please make other arrangements for your internet access.
Thank you again for your clarifying email. I hope I have also made the library's position and perspective clear.
Respectfully,
Robin Sales,
Library Director
[1] Kellogg Hubbard Library Internet Policy
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July 11, 2011
There's harassment all over the library, and there has been for weeks. They even put harassment in the bathroom. Now everybody has to ask for a key to use the bathroom because I objected to the harassing things that the director must have authorized putting there, such as the poster for the "Gary Fisher" bike that was taped to the bookcase across from the toilet, less than a foot away, where nobody who turned around and sat down after walking into the bathroom could miss it.
There's a new poster on the plaque out front that's advertising "Kellogg-Hubbard Storytime for Children" on the library front steps. It has a picture of a surfboard and waves on it.
On the day in question, I didn't do anything that all of the other patrons of the library don't do. I never see other patrons checking with staff to see if they can get another half hour, and I'd only had a half hour in the first place. People sit here for hours at a time and the staff never interrupt them, especially if there are empty computers available for other people to use during all that time.
If I got upset on that day, it's because the harassment has been going on for a long time, and because the particular staffperson who had made it a habit to watch when I signed in so that she could kick me off the computer the second my half hour was off not only did that, she did it again the minute I got on a computer again with at least 2 other computers available just at that one table, and because that particular staffperson has also made harassing comments when I've been here before.
She's the one who went and got the library director, who then gave me her (the director's) e-mail address so that I could e-mail her with my complaint if I wanted to do so.
I don't have a problem following reasonable rules that are enforced in a reasonable way by people who aren't malicious.
Here's the e-mail that I sent to the director on June 30, 2011, to which she replied as I've shown above:
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Hello,
I don't think you gave me your name when we met the other day.
The library staffperson who went to get you to have you speak to me is the only one who goes out of her way to give me a rough time in person. On that day, there were 2 other empty computers available to anyone who wanted to use one, above and beyond the one that she wanted me to leave, and that was just at the table where I'd sat down.
I often see other people sitting past the 1/2 hour time limit; every time that I walk into that building, not only does she make loud and gross comments, she watches me like a hawk to see when the 1/2 hour for me is over. Then she makes what is supposedly a general announcement that people should finish, but I'm the only one whom she ever stands there and makes leave.
I want her to leave me alone. I've never done anything to her. She tried to point to the sign and say that the time limit is "at the librarian's discretion," but she's done nothing but get on my case for a long time, and, as I've said, she's the only staffperson there who does it.
I had sat down for a 2nd half-hour, but that was after I'd walked away after she'd made the supposedly general announcement the first time, and then I'd come back, looked around, seen a lot of empty computers, and sat down at one. Then she came over again, and that was when the issue started. She doesn't need to behave the way she does.
Lena Kochman
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July 11, 2011
I found a 2010 report called:
"Child Molesters: A Behavioral Analysis
For Professionals Investigating the Sexual Exploitation of Children
Fifth Edition, 2010
By Kenneth V. Lanning, Former Supervisory Special Agent, Federal Bureau of Investigation (FBI)
Copyright 2010 National Center for Missing and Exploited Children"
I looked at the website for the National Center for Missing and Exploited Children for a few minutes. From those minutes, it looks legitimate.
Ironically, considering the latest fad among businesses and celebrities that are endorsing pedophilia, the section about "Denial" starts on page 169 of the report. That page also continues on to page 170 (I'm not putting code here, but I'm OK with people seeing the irony of the page numbers).
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"After Identification
When a child-molestation case is uncovered and an offender identified, there are
certain fairly predictable reactions by the child molester. This is especially true of
acquaintance molesters who are pedophiles or other types of preferential sex offenders.
Many sex offenders are especially good at inventing all kinds of explanations and
excuses to deny, minimize, rationalize, or validate their sexual interests and behavior.
Knowledge and anticipation of these reactions will help the investigation and prosecution
of such difficult cases. I find highly trained mental-health professionals with
limited forensic experience are especially gullible in accepting these uncorroborated
claims. My biased perspective is to assume everyone is lying unless I know otherwise.
Pedophile Defenses
Denial
Usually the first reaction of a child molester to discovery is complete denial. The
offender may act shocked, surprised, or even indignant about an allegation of sexual
activity with children. He may claim to know nothing about it or that he does not
remember. He might admit to an act, but deny the intent was sexual gratification
saying, “Is it a crime to hug a child?” He may imply his actions were misunderstood,
and a mistake has been made. An offender who has engaged in sexual activity with
a child victim who is compliant may even convince himself his denial about not
sexually “assaulting” the child is the truth. In child-pornography cases some of
the classic lines are, “I did not know that was on my computer,” “I did not know
it was a child in the picture.” Relatives, friends, neighbors, and coworkers may aid
his denial. These associates may be uncooperative and even hinder investigation
of the offender. In any case the investigator should anticipate and not be thrown
off by strong initial denial by a suspect.
Minimization
If the evidence against him rules out total denial, the offender may attempt to
minimize what he has done both in quantity and quality. He might claim it happened
on one or two isolated occasions or he only touched or caressed the victim.
He may be knowledgeable about the law and admit to acts he knows are lesser
offenses or misdemeanors. Some molesters minimize their activity by emphasizing
the older age of their victims. Such victims might be referred to as “teens” rather
than children. It is important to recognize even seemingly cooperative victims may
also minimize the quantity and quality of acts. If a certain sexual act was performed
30 times, the victim might claim it happened only 5 times, and the offender might
claim it happened only once or twice. In cases involving online solicitation to have
sex with a child, the two classic lines are, “I have never done this before” and “I
was just curious to see who showed up, I never intended to have sex.”
Justification
Many child molesters, especially preferential molesters, spend their lives attempting
to convince themselves they are not immoral, sexual deviants, or criminals. They
170 - Child Molesters: A Behavioral Analysis
prefer to believe they are high-minded, loving individuals whose behavior is
misunderstood or politically incorrect at this time in history. They refer to themselves
as “boy lovers” not child molesters. Plugging into this justification system
is the key to interviewing such offenders.
Rationalization usually involves trying to convince himself or others the
sexual activity with children was not harmful. Validation usually involves trying
to convince himself or others the sexual activity with children was beneficial. Child
molesters frequently attempt to justify their behavior to law enforcement. They
might claim they care for children more than the children’s parents/guardians do
and what he does is beneficial to the child. They love to talk about starving, abused
children in third-world countries. If he is the stepfather or foster parent of the victim,
he might claim the child is better off learning about sex from him. In other cases he
might claim to be under tremendous stress or have a drinking problem. He might
claim he did not know how old a certain victim was.
His efforts to justify his behavior often center around blaming the victim. This
is probably the single most common rationalization of all child molesters. The
offender may claim the victim seduced him, wanted and initiated the sexual activity,
enjoyed and needed the sexual activity, or is promiscuous or even a prostitute. In
some cases it might even be true. They often go into great detail explaining the
difference between “consenting” and forced sex with children. But such justification
should have no meaning. A crime has still been committed. As previously stated the
major legal difference between sex crimes committed against children and adults
is that with child victims consent is not supposed to matter."
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July 11, 2011
I added the bold print to the paragraph above. I have seen some evidence of children and teenagers in Vermont being corrupted by what's been happening over the past year.
Copyright, with noted exceptions: L. Kochman July 11, 2011 @ 12:05 p.m./additions and edits @ 12:12 p.m.
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July 11, 2011
Here are some things that have happened over the past week:
--I walked by the Ford dealer one morning, and the red boat that had said “Sea Breeze 210” with the “0” covered so that it just said “Sea Breeze 21” was gone. When I got to the Montpelier library and was on the Internet, I saw that Google had something up in support of Ford, perhaps in response to the fact that I reported before then not just the boat but also a red car on the Ford lot that had the license plate number “174” on it.
When I walked back by the Ford dealer that afternoon, another boat was on the lawn; the boat's name is “Sea Ray.”
Today, when I walked by the Ford dealer in the afternoon, on my way back from Montpelier, I saw that the dealer had added a black truck near the boat on the front lawn. The truck says “King Ranch” on it.
They also have put an orange "Caution" cone in the middle of a raised circle of cement with orange tape around it, in the parking lot.
--On the same afternoon that I walked by the Ford dealer and saw the “Sea Ray” boat, I went to the Price Chopper. I went in, and all of the unnecessary Wet Floor signs had been put back around the store on completely dry floor. Not only that, but there was a large swath of water that might have been 100 feet long and between 10 and 20 feet wide at the end of the produce section, several yards away from the seafood counter. There were only a couple of Wet Floor signs around the front part of the swath. When the staff saw me, they started laughing. The swath of water went all the way back into the back of the store, through the employee entrance into the storage areas. They must have used buckets of water or a hose to put all of that water on the floor.
When I walked by that area, they were making no attempt to get rid of any of the water. They were pushing carts through it, tracking water all over the area around them.
The open freezer that has mussels, clams and so on that is on the floor a few feet away from the Seafood counter had a Wet Floor sign on either side of it, even though all of the floor around it was completely dry. The open refrigerator for meet that's a few feet away from that had Wet Floor signs around it, even though there was completely dry floor there, too.
There is now a display of “Cheeze Whiz” at the end of the refrigerated aisle at the other end of the store, where there had been a display of “Laughing Cow” cheese before. The open refrigerator of Cabot cheese is still there.
I went to the front of the store to speak to a manager; then I decided to go back to where I'd seen all the water to find out more about what was going on.
When I got there, I saw that the staff had put a few more Wet Floor signs around the water and were starting to mop it up. A young, male staffperson walked toward me, rubbed his nose and went into another aisle.
What I'm wondering is if there's always staff that watch for me out the windows; it takes a few minutes to walk to the store from the road. I'm thinking that they waited to see me on my way there, poured all the water on the floor, and waited for me to walk by it before they started to mop up the water.
I went back to the front of the store to talk to the manager. While I was waiting to talk to him, a male customer in his 50's or older walked up to me. He got within a foot of me and said "Have you seen my turtle? It ran away; it lost the will to live."
He looked really out of it; talk about someone who looks dirty. He also looked as if he were on some kind of drugs.
Today, I went back and picked up as many Wet Floor signs as I could carry from around the store. I only picked them up where there was no wet floor. Including the one by the freezer that was placed next to where I buy hummus that also now has a display of “Dessert Shells” next to it, and including the one in front of the bathrooms, and including the ones from around the small seafood freezer, I was able to carry 11 Wet Floor signs to the front of the store.
I asked to speak to the manager. He walked up to me and rubbed his nose. I told him “There's no wet floor where these signs were, and I'm a human being.” He said “What are you upset about?”
There is now a large display of Goldfish crackers above another display of bottled water by the entrance. I saw that when I walked by the young, female staffperson whom the manager told to start putting the Wet Floor signs back out around the floor.
I also saw that there was a Wet Floor sign over something that looked like wet floor in front of the large meat counter. It was in front of a small display of wine bottles. I asked the guy behind the counter about it, and he said “A bottle broke there; I just paged someone to take care of it.” I said “It's been there since I got into the store.” He said “Yeah, it just happened.”
Copyright L. Kochman July 11, 2011 @ 7:17 p.m./additions @ 7:53 p.m. (I know most of the story by heart, and looked again at my notes to make a few additions about incidents within the larger incidents that I had noted but forgotten to write here tonight.)
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--On the same day that the staff at the Price Chopper poured water all over the floor to have it be there when I walked by, I went into a Blockbuster Video. I went into the video store a few minutes after I'd been at the Price Chopper; it's on the way back to Barre.
I went into the store and walked around it for a few minutes. As I was walking around, I was thinking about the fact that there are all kinds of horrible things about the film industry that I didn't know anything about a few years ago.
It seemed as if there were all male staff there on that day. One of them walked up to a few feet away from me and asked me if he could help me find anything. I said "No, thank you." He told me to let him know if I needed his help. I said "Thank you" to that, too.
I went back to the other side of the store. A minute or so later, I heard a loud, fake sneeze. I looked over and saw the 3 Blockbuster employees laughing. I asked one of them "Was that you?" He said "Yes." He looked very pleased with himself. I said "You must have a bad cold." Still laughing, he said "Not really."
Today, I went back into the Blockbuster store after I'd been at the Price Chopper. I lost my temper; I asked the guy why anyone had bothered to talk to me the other day at all, why they didn't just leave me alone in the first place. He pretended not to know what I was talking about.
I ended it by raising my voice and saying "Every fucking place I go, people are doing things like this; I can't even begin to imagine what makes a group of people act this way toward one person, with no mercy."
--The Army Navy store has something in the window, a red box that has the word "Grabber" on it. It has a lot of other harassment and so on in its windows and around the store.
As I walked by the store, the driver of a car saw me and screeched into the parking lot. I think there was also someone in the passenger seat. He turned the car around and drove it past me again going the other way.
It seems as if they wanted to see what I looked like; they were curious, that's all. In any case, the license plate number was: "CPT 858."
@7:46 p.m.
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--The Wayside Restaurant has a display of books on the shelf opposite the door. The books are "The Secret History of Barre," and are advertised with a sign that's also on the counter that says "New Read $19.99." A few weeks ago, I mentioned on this blog that a bookstore in Barre had a sign in its window advertising for "The Secret History of Barre," and I had speculated that it was probably a pedophilia reference.
A few feet in front of the books, there's a sign in front of the host's station that says
"July Special
Sunday Monday Tuesday
Ocean Fresh Seafood"
If I had children, I wouldn't want them to go to the Wayside Restaurant, and I definitely wouldn't let them walk around that place by themselves.
@7:50 p.m.
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July 11, 2011
A few weeks ago, if readers will recall, I wrote about how I'd walked into Shaw's and torn the first "Clean Up Your Act Day" poster that I saw off the bulletin board in the entrance to the store. It turned out to be only one of two identical posters, in addition to the rest of the harassment on the bulletin board and harassing displays throughout the store. I tore the poster in half, and then I went to the manager, gave him the poster halves and said "I can't take anymore of this; nobody could take this day after day." He started yelling at me, "WHAT DO YOU MEAN!?" as I walked away.
Several days ago, I went to the same Shaws to buy something and I also used the restroom. I've used the restroom there before. You have to ask for the key to it at the front desk. I went to the back corner of the store where the restroom is. On my way there, I saw that the "Reduced Items" endcap display that is directly across from the restroom had some things on the shelves that I thought I should look at when I left the restroom.
When I went into the restroom, I saw that someone had put a sign above the sink that said, in all capital letters"
"FAUCET HANDLES MUST BE POSITIONED STRAIGHT ACROSS TO TURN WATER OFF."
The words "FAUCET HANDLES" and "STRAIGHT" were underlined, and the line under the word "STRAIGHT" had arrows on either end.
The following list contains some of the things that were on the endcap display outside of the restroom:
--Streit's Passover Matzos
--Kraft's Fat Free Catalina salad dressing
--Streit's Barbecue Bag n' Bake
--Manischevitz Matzoball soup mix
--Manischevitz Matzos
--Streit's Matzo Farfel--Easy Pour Spout--Eco Friendly
That was all on the shelf above the shelf that had the "REDUCED ITEMS" sign on it. "REDUCED ITEMS" was written in red. Here's some of what was on that shelf:
--several jars of "Mothers Old Fashioned Gefilte Fish"
--several jars of "Rokeach Old Vienna Gefilte Fish"
--a small box of bouillion cubes that said "Product of Isreal" on top of the jars of gefilte fish
Along the side of the endcap, and close to the "REDUCED ITEMS" shelf, there were several packages that said:
"TAYLOR Classic Roast-Yeast Thermometer"
"TAYLOR" was the brand of the thermometer.
On the next shelf:
--no-brand allergy medication
--a bag of water balloons
--College Inn chicken broth
--Gourmet Mist Balsamic Vinegar and Raspberry Salad Dressing
--more jars of gefilte fish
On the next shelf:
--Prevail briefs--incontinence undergarments for youths, #16
--party plates next to the undergarments that said "Happy Birthday"
On the next shelf:
--unscented cat litter, next to
--a box of lemon scent automatic dishwashing detergent
@8:07 p.m.
3 endcaps over from the "REDUCED ITEMS" endcap:
--Entenmann's Pastries, including cheese danish and cheese filled crumb coffee cake
--Poland Spring Water
--liters of soda, including Pepsi with the "Refresh Your World" slogan, behind a display of Ocean Spray sugar free drink mix
That was across from a display of RAID and OFF that said "Stop what's bugging you."
As I was taking notes, a guy who was probably in his 60's walked over to me and then past me into the aisle. He was wearing a sweatshirt that said "FISHERMAN" on it in capital letters. He was in the aisle for a minute or two, then he wandered back out again, without ever saying a word. He's not the first older guy who's done that; by now, it's like having some guy walk by me with a shirt that says "I'm thinking about your vagina; you're worthless, so I can put my thoughts about your vagina on the front of my sweatshirt, walk by you in the supermarket and enjoy that a lot."
The RAID and OFF display also had "No-Ad Sun Pals --Face Block Lotion" for kids. The package also said "Skin Cancer Foundation" on it and had a picture of a fish on the front cover.
The RAID and OFF displays get used often as harassment. For example, at the Price Chopper, there is one near the front entrance and one right at the exit; the two displays are not even 100 feet away from each other.
I have a lot more to write about, but I have a feeling I'm losing my edge for tonight. Sick of it; I'm so sick of it. I'm so sick of being vulnerable to horrible people.
Copyright L. Kochman July 11, 2011 @8:48 p.m. (There are so many cruel things I could say here. That's how I've been getting affected by it lately; at a certain point, all you want to do is try to make people feel bad, and you don't even care who it is.)
I went to the McFarland state office building in Barre this morning. It has offices such as the Department of Labor and the Department of Health. The display about how to avoid getting Lyme disease has been replaced by a display covered with pictures of children at the beach and in swimming pools. Ostensibly, its purpose is to inform people about child safety at those places. There are also pamphlets on the table that say “FIGHT BAC,” which I think were about bacteria in swimming areas.
There was a handmade sign that said something such as “6 Tips” for the subject matter of the display. The “6” was written in red, whatever that was supposed to mean.
I went to the upstairs bathroom, which had a “Wet Floor” sign in it; there was no wet floor in the bathroom. I’d really had enough, and I couldn’t help myself from taking the sign and throwing it out of the bathroom door.
A minute later, I opened the door again and saw that one of the female workers was looking out of the window which had had a pedophilia-supportive display in it the last time that I was in the building. Much of that display seems to have been dismantled before I got there this morning. I went out into the hallway, picked up the wet floor sign, and said to her “There’s no wet floor in that bathroom, and I’ve goddamn had enough.” She nodded, and then someone else in that office got on the phone.
I took the sign downstairs to where I had seen the cleaning lady with her cart. The cleaning lady was by the other bathroom, which had 2 Wet Floor signs stacked next to each other outside the door. There was another Wet Floor sign on her cart. I put the sign I was holding on the cart next to the other sign and said “This is where this goes.”
I went back upstairs to the bathroom and saw that the plastic tray for free condoms, which was empty for the first, few months that I spent time in that building, had a condom in the front that said “Lucky Boy” in a blue package. The other condoms behind it were “Her Pleasure” in lavender and then more “Magnum” condoms.
“Lucky Boy” condoms? There’s a clinic for children a few feet away from that bathroom. The welfare department is also in that building; it’s supposed to be safe for women and children, especially impoverished ones.
I went into the Department of Labor. After I’d sat down at a computer, one of the male staffpeople got a phone call at his desk. I heard him say “Security” a couple of times.
I got up and ready to leave. He said “Lena, can you please wait a minute?”
I said “No” and left the office.
He’s someone who’s made plenty of harassing comments and conversation around me in the past.
He followed me out of the office. As I was about to leave the building, he called to me again from the top of the stairs “Can you please wait a minute?”
I left.
I’ve been wondering if the reason that there are more women who want pedophilia to become legal than I first thought there would be is that the opportunity to have sex with children is something that those women see as compensation for the fact that women are losing everything to men because of what’s happened over the past year and a half. It seems to me that in a male-dominated society, anything which makes men objects of sexual desire rather than the only initiators of sexual activity is seen as an affront to male power and is therefore condemned.
As women’s lives continue to be undermined, in school, at work, in their relationships and more, perhaps there are women who are thinking “At least there will always be children whom I can victimize.”
Copyright L. Kochman July 11, 2011 @ 10:56 a.m./edit @ 11:00 a.m.
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July 11, 2011
Here's the first part of the e-mail that the director of the Kellogg-Hubbard Library, which is the Montpelier library, sent me on July 8, 2011:
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Hello, Lena,
Thank you for the email, it was helpful to have your perspective. I am sorry that you feel upset by our rules and the staff who enforce them. These rules apply to anyone who chooses to use the public access computers here. I hope the attached reply will make the library's position and perspective clear just as you have made your position and perspective clear.
Thank you again for sharing your concerns.
Respectfully,
Robin Sales,
Library Director
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Here's what the attached document that she refers to in the message says:
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KELLOGG--HUBBARD LIBRARY 135 Main Street
Montpelier, Vermont 05602-2992
Phone/Fax 802.223.3338
www.kellogghubbard.org
July 8, 2011
Dear Lena,
Thank you for the email, it was helpful to have your perspective. I am sorry that you feel upset by our rules and the staff who enforce them. These rules apply to anyone who uses the public access computers here. (Average daily use of the internet computers at the Kellogg –Hubbard Library is around 138 people. ) Often patrons are allowed to work beyond the half hour limit that we must enforce when it is busy at the librarian’s discretion. However, even if some computers are free patrons are asked to leave after a prolonged session of an hour or an hour and a half. This ensures that other patrons who may want to use the computer that day have the opportunity to do so.
“When using the terminals, you agree to the following:
§ Sign in for a half hour session on the terminal you plan to use.
§ If you need additional time, check with staff.
§ You are responsible for all printouts you generate.To avoid errors use print Preview or ask for assistance. Pick up printouts at the circ desk.
§ You must end your session when asked to do so by the library staff.
§ No more than two people per computer. Behavior must not disrupt other patrons. “
Patrons agree to respect these terms when they sign in to use the computer. Access to “the Library's computer network and Internet is a privilege, not a right. …Failure to comply with this policy and its procedures will result in the forfeiture of library Internet or general library privileges.”[1]
On the day in question, you did not respect the highlighted rules above or the request of the library staff, and you also created a public disturbance with your reaction to that request.
If you can respect the library rules and the staff, you are welcome to continue to visit the Kellogg-Hubbard Library and use the computers. Failure to respect the library rules and the staff will result in a loss of internet privileges, and in some cases may lead to a loss of library privileges. If you are unable to abide by these rules, please make other arrangements for your internet access.
Thank you again for your clarifying email. I hope I have also made the library's position and perspective clear.
Respectfully,
Robin Sales,
Library Director
[1] Kellogg Hubbard Library Internet Policy
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July 11, 2011
There's harassment all over the library, and there has been for weeks. They even put harassment in the bathroom. Now everybody has to ask for a key to use the bathroom because I objected to the harassing things that the director must have authorized putting there, such as the poster for the "Gary Fisher" bike that was taped to the bookcase across from the toilet, less than a foot away, where nobody who turned around and sat down after walking into the bathroom could miss it.
There's a new poster on the plaque out front that's advertising "Kellogg-Hubbard Storytime for Children" on the library front steps. It has a picture of a surfboard and waves on it.
On the day in question, I didn't do anything that all of the other patrons of the library don't do. I never see other patrons checking with staff to see if they can get another half hour, and I'd only had a half hour in the first place. People sit here for hours at a time and the staff never interrupt them, especially if there are empty computers available for other people to use during all that time.
If I got upset on that day, it's because the harassment has been going on for a long time, and because the particular staffperson who had made it a habit to watch when I signed in so that she could kick me off the computer the second my half hour was off not only did that, she did it again the minute I got on a computer again with at least 2 other computers available just at that one table, and because that particular staffperson has also made harassing comments when I've been here before.
She's the one who went and got the library director, who then gave me her (the director's) e-mail address so that I could e-mail her with my complaint if I wanted to do so.
I don't have a problem following reasonable rules that are enforced in a reasonable way by people who aren't malicious.
Here's the e-mail that I sent to the director on June 30, 2011, to which she replied as I've shown above:
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Hello,
I don't think you gave me your name when we met the other day.
The library staffperson who went to get you to have you speak to me is the only one who goes out of her way to give me a rough time in person. On that day, there were 2 other empty computers available to anyone who wanted to use one, above and beyond the one that she wanted me to leave, and that was just at the table where I'd sat down.
I often see other people sitting past the 1/2 hour time limit; every time that I walk into that building, not only does she make loud and gross comments, she watches me like a hawk to see when the 1/2 hour for me is over. Then she makes what is supposedly a general announcement that people should finish, but I'm the only one whom she ever stands there and makes leave.
I want her to leave me alone. I've never done anything to her. She tried to point to the sign and say that the time limit is "at the librarian's discretion," but she's done nothing but get on my case for a long time, and, as I've said, she's the only staffperson there who does it.
I had sat down for a 2nd half-hour, but that was after I'd walked away after she'd made the supposedly general announcement the first time, and then I'd come back, looked around, seen a lot of empty computers, and sat down at one. Then she came over again, and that was when the issue started. She doesn't need to behave the way she does.
Lena Kochman
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July 11, 2011
I found a 2010 report called:
"Child Molesters: A Behavioral Analysis
For Professionals Investigating the Sexual Exploitation of Children
Fifth Edition, 2010
By Kenneth V. Lanning, Former Supervisory Special Agent, Federal Bureau of Investigation (FBI)
Copyright 2010 National Center for Missing and Exploited Children"
I looked at the website for the National Center for Missing and Exploited Children for a few minutes. From those minutes, it looks legitimate.
Ironically, considering the latest fad among businesses and celebrities that are endorsing pedophilia, the section about "Denial" starts on page 169 of the report. That page also continues on to page 170 (I'm not putting code here, but I'm OK with people seeing the irony of the page numbers).
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"After Identification
When a child-molestation case is uncovered and an offender identified, there are
certain fairly predictable reactions by the child molester. This is especially true of
acquaintance molesters who are pedophiles or other types of preferential sex offenders.
Many sex offenders are especially good at inventing all kinds of explanations and
excuses to deny, minimize, rationalize, or validate their sexual interests and behavior.
Knowledge and anticipation of these reactions will help the investigation and prosecution
of such difficult cases. I find highly trained mental-health professionals with
limited forensic experience are especially gullible in accepting these uncorroborated
claims. My biased perspective is to assume everyone is lying unless I know otherwise.
Pedophile Defenses
Denial
Usually the first reaction of a child molester to discovery is complete denial. The
offender may act shocked, surprised, or even indignant about an allegation of sexual
activity with children. He may claim to know nothing about it or that he does not
remember. He might admit to an act, but deny the intent was sexual gratification
saying, “Is it a crime to hug a child?” He may imply his actions were misunderstood,
and a mistake has been made. An offender who has engaged in sexual activity with
a child victim who is compliant may even convince himself his denial about not
sexually “assaulting” the child is the truth. In child-pornography cases some of
the classic lines are, “I did not know that was on my computer,” “I did not know
it was a child in the picture.” Relatives, friends, neighbors, and coworkers may aid
his denial. These associates may be uncooperative and even hinder investigation
of the offender. In any case the investigator should anticipate and not be thrown
off by strong initial denial by a suspect.
Minimization
If the evidence against him rules out total denial, the offender may attempt to
minimize what he has done both in quantity and quality. He might claim it happened
on one or two isolated occasions or he only touched or caressed the victim.
He may be knowledgeable about the law and admit to acts he knows are lesser
offenses or misdemeanors. Some molesters minimize their activity by emphasizing
the older age of their victims. Such victims might be referred to as “teens” rather
than children. It is important to recognize even seemingly cooperative victims may
also minimize the quantity and quality of acts. If a certain sexual act was performed
30 times, the victim might claim it happened only 5 times, and the offender might
claim it happened only once or twice. In cases involving online solicitation to have
sex with a child, the two classic lines are, “I have never done this before” and “I
was just curious to see who showed up, I never intended to have sex.”
Justification
Many child molesters, especially preferential molesters, spend their lives attempting
to convince themselves they are not immoral, sexual deviants, or criminals. They
170 - Child Molesters: A Behavioral Analysis
prefer to believe they are high-minded, loving individuals whose behavior is
misunderstood or politically incorrect at this time in history. They refer to themselves
as “boy lovers” not child molesters. Plugging into this justification system
is the key to interviewing such offenders.
Rationalization usually involves trying to convince himself or others the
sexual activity with children was not harmful. Validation usually involves trying
to convince himself or others the sexual activity with children was beneficial. Child
molesters frequently attempt to justify their behavior to law enforcement. They
might claim they care for children more than the children’s parents/guardians do
and what he does is beneficial to the child. They love to talk about starving, abused
children in third-world countries. If he is the stepfather or foster parent of the victim,
he might claim the child is better off learning about sex from him. In other cases he
might claim to be under tremendous stress or have a drinking problem. He might
claim he did not know how old a certain victim was.
His efforts to justify his behavior often center around blaming the victim. This
is probably the single most common rationalization of all child molesters. The
offender may claim the victim seduced him, wanted and initiated the sexual activity,
enjoyed and needed the sexual activity, or is promiscuous or even a prostitute. In
some cases it might even be true. They often go into great detail explaining the
difference between “consenting” and forced sex with children. But such justification
should have no meaning. A crime has still been committed. As previously stated the
major legal difference between sex crimes committed against children and adults
is that with child victims consent is not supposed to matter."
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July 11, 2011
I added the bold print to the paragraph above. I have seen some evidence of children and teenagers in Vermont being corrupted by what's been happening over the past year.
Copyright, with noted exceptions: L. Kochman July 11, 2011 @ 12:05 p.m./additions and edits @ 12:12 p.m.
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July 11, 2011
Here are some things that have happened over the past week:
--I walked by the Ford dealer one morning, and the red boat that had said “Sea Breeze 210” with the “0” covered so that it just said “Sea Breeze 21” was gone. When I got to the Montpelier library and was on the Internet, I saw that Google had something up in support of Ford, perhaps in response to the fact that I reported before then not just the boat but also a red car on the Ford lot that had the license plate number “174” on it.
When I walked back by the Ford dealer that afternoon, another boat was on the lawn; the boat's name is “Sea Ray.”
Today, when I walked by the Ford dealer in the afternoon, on my way back from Montpelier, I saw that the dealer had added a black truck near the boat on the front lawn. The truck says “King Ranch” on it.
They also have put an orange "Caution" cone in the middle of a raised circle of cement with orange tape around it, in the parking lot.
--On the same afternoon that I walked by the Ford dealer and saw the “Sea Ray” boat, I went to the Price Chopper. I went in, and all of the unnecessary Wet Floor signs had been put back around the store on completely dry floor. Not only that, but there was a large swath of water that might have been 100 feet long and between 10 and 20 feet wide at the end of the produce section, several yards away from the seafood counter. There were only a couple of Wet Floor signs around the front part of the swath. When the staff saw me, they started laughing. The swath of water went all the way back into the back of the store, through the employee entrance into the storage areas. They must have used buckets of water or a hose to put all of that water on the floor.
When I walked by that area, they were making no attempt to get rid of any of the water. They were pushing carts through it, tracking water all over the area around them.
The open freezer that has mussels, clams and so on that is on the floor a few feet away from the Seafood counter had a Wet Floor sign on either side of it, even though all of the floor around it was completely dry. The open refrigerator for meet that's a few feet away from that had Wet Floor signs around it, even though there was completely dry floor there, too.
There is now a display of “Cheeze Whiz” at the end of the refrigerated aisle at the other end of the store, where there had been a display of “Laughing Cow” cheese before. The open refrigerator of Cabot cheese is still there.
I went to the front of the store to speak to a manager; then I decided to go back to where I'd seen all the water to find out more about what was going on.
When I got there, I saw that the staff had put a few more Wet Floor signs around the water and were starting to mop it up. A young, male staffperson walked toward me, rubbed his nose and went into another aisle.
What I'm wondering is if there's always staff that watch for me out the windows; it takes a few minutes to walk to the store from the road. I'm thinking that they waited to see me on my way there, poured all the water on the floor, and waited for me to walk by it before they started to mop up the water.
I went back to the front of the store to talk to the manager. While I was waiting to talk to him, a male customer in his 50's or older walked up to me. He got within a foot of me and said "Have you seen my turtle? It ran away; it lost the will to live."
He looked really out of it; talk about someone who looks dirty. He also looked as if he were on some kind of drugs.
Today, I went back and picked up as many Wet Floor signs as I could carry from around the store. I only picked them up where there was no wet floor. Including the one by the freezer that was placed next to where I buy hummus that also now has a display of “Dessert Shells” next to it, and including the one in front of the bathrooms, and including the ones from around the small seafood freezer, I was able to carry 11 Wet Floor signs to the front of the store.
I asked to speak to the manager. He walked up to me and rubbed his nose. I told him “There's no wet floor where these signs were, and I'm a human being.” He said “What are you upset about?”
There is now a large display of Goldfish crackers above another display of bottled water by the entrance. I saw that when I walked by the young, female staffperson whom the manager told to start putting the Wet Floor signs back out around the floor.
I also saw that there was a Wet Floor sign over something that looked like wet floor in front of the large meat counter. It was in front of a small display of wine bottles. I asked the guy behind the counter about it, and he said “A bottle broke there; I just paged someone to take care of it.” I said “It's been there since I got into the store.” He said “Yeah, it just happened.”
Copyright L. Kochman July 11, 2011 @ 7:17 p.m./additions @ 7:53 p.m. (I know most of the story by heart, and looked again at my notes to make a few additions about incidents within the larger incidents that I had noted but forgotten to write here tonight.)
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--On the same day that the staff at the Price Chopper poured water all over the floor to have it be there when I walked by, I went into a Blockbuster Video. I went into the video store a few minutes after I'd been at the Price Chopper; it's on the way back to Barre.
I went into the store and walked around it for a few minutes. As I was walking around, I was thinking about the fact that there are all kinds of horrible things about the film industry that I didn't know anything about a few years ago.
It seemed as if there were all male staff there on that day. One of them walked up to a few feet away from me and asked me if he could help me find anything. I said "No, thank you." He told me to let him know if I needed his help. I said "Thank you" to that, too.
I went back to the other side of the store. A minute or so later, I heard a loud, fake sneeze. I looked over and saw the 3 Blockbuster employees laughing. I asked one of them "Was that you?" He said "Yes." He looked very pleased with himself. I said "You must have a bad cold." Still laughing, he said "Not really."
Today, I went back into the Blockbuster store after I'd been at the Price Chopper. I lost my temper; I asked the guy why anyone had bothered to talk to me the other day at all, why they didn't just leave me alone in the first place. He pretended not to know what I was talking about.
I ended it by raising my voice and saying "Every fucking place I go, people are doing things like this; I can't even begin to imagine what makes a group of people act this way toward one person, with no mercy."
--The Army Navy store has something in the window, a red box that has the word "Grabber" on it. It has a lot of other harassment and so on in its windows and around the store.
As I walked by the store, the driver of a car saw me and screeched into the parking lot. I think there was also someone in the passenger seat. He turned the car around and drove it past me again going the other way.
It seems as if they wanted to see what I looked like; they were curious, that's all. In any case, the license plate number was: "CPT 858."
@7:46 p.m.
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July 11, 2011
--The Wayside Restaurant has a display of books on the shelf opposite the door. The books are "The Secret History of Barre," and are advertised with a sign that's also on the counter that says "New Read $19.99." A few weeks ago, I mentioned on this blog that a bookstore in Barre had a sign in its window advertising for "The Secret History of Barre," and I had speculated that it was probably a pedophilia reference.
A few feet in front of the books, there's a sign in front of the host's station that says
"July Special
Sunday Monday Tuesday
Ocean Fresh Seafood"
If I had children, I wouldn't want them to go to the Wayside Restaurant, and I definitely wouldn't let them walk around that place by themselves.
@7:50 p.m.
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July 11, 2011
A few weeks ago, if readers will recall, I wrote about how I'd walked into Shaw's and torn the first "Clean Up Your Act Day" poster that I saw off the bulletin board in the entrance to the store. It turned out to be only one of two identical posters, in addition to the rest of the harassment on the bulletin board and harassing displays throughout the store. I tore the poster in half, and then I went to the manager, gave him the poster halves and said "I can't take anymore of this; nobody could take this day after day." He started yelling at me, "WHAT DO YOU MEAN!?" as I walked away.
Several days ago, I went to the same Shaws to buy something and I also used the restroom. I've used the restroom there before. You have to ask for the key to it at the front desk. I went to the back corner of the store where the restroom is. On my way there, I saw that the "Reduced Items" endcap display that is directly across from the restroom had some things on the shelves that I thought I should look at when I left the restroom.
When I went into the restroom, I saw that someone had put a sign above the sink that said, in all capital letters"
"FAUCET HANDLES MUST BE POSITIONED STRAIGHT ACROSS TO TURN WATER OFF."
The words "FAUCET HANDLES" and "STRAIGHT" were underlined, and the line under the word "STRAIGHT" had arrows on either end.
The following list contains some of the things that were on the endcap display outside of the restroom:
--Streit's Passover Matzos
--Kraft's Fat Free Catalina salad dressing
--Streit's Barbecue Bag n' Bake
--Manischevitz Matzoball soup mix
--Manischevitz Matzos
--Streit's Matzo Farfel--Easy Pour Spout--Eco Friendly
That was all on the shelf above the shelf that had the "REDUCED ITEMS" sign on it. "REDUCED ITEMS" was written in red. Here's some of what was on that shelf:
--several jars of "Mothers Old Fashioned Gefilte Fish"
--several jars of "Rokeach Old Vienna Gefilte Fish"
--a small box of bouillion cubes that said "Product of Isreal" on top of the jars of gefilte fish
Along the side of the endcap, and close to the "REDUCED ITEMS" shelf, there were several packages that said:
"TAYLOR Classic Roast-Yeast Thermometer"
"TAYLOR" was the brand of the thermometer.
On the next shelf:
--no-brand allergy medication
--a bag of water balloons
--College Inn chicken broth
--Gourmet Mist Balsamic Vinegar and Raspberry Salad Dressing
--more jars of gefilte fish
On the next shelf:
--Prevail briefs--incontinence undergarments for youths, #16
--party plates next to the undergarments that said "Happy Birthday"
On the next shelf:
--unscented cat litter, next to
--a box of lemon scent automatic dishwashing detergent
@8:07 p.m.
3 endcaps over from the "REDUCED ITEMS" endcap:
--Entenmann's Pastries, including cheese danish and cheese filled crumb coffee cake
--Poland Spring Water
--liters of soda, including Pepsi with the "Refresh Your World" slogan, behind a display of Ocean Spray sugar free drink mix
That was across from a display of RAID and OFF that said "Stop what's bugging you."
As I was taking notes, a guy who was probably in his 60's walked over to me and then past me into the aisle. He was wearing a sweatshirt that said "FISHERMAN" on it in capital letters. He was in the aisle for a minute or two, then he wandered back out again, without ever saying a word. He's not the first older guy who's done that; by now, it's like having some guy walk by me with a shirt that says "I'm thinking about your vagina; you're worthless, so I can put my thoughts about your vagina on the front of my sweatshirt, walk by you in the supermarket and enjoy that a lot."
The RAID and OFF display also had "No-Ad Sun Pals --Face Block Lotion" for kids. The package also said "Skin Cancer Foundation" on it and had a picture of a fish on the front cover.
The RAID and OFF displays get used often as harassment. For example, at the Price Chopper, there is one near the front entrance and one right at the exit; the two displays are not even 100 feet away from each other.
I have a lot more to write about, but I have a feeling I'm losing my edge for tonight. Sick of it; I'm so sick of it. I'm so sick of being vulnerable to horrible people.
Copyright L. Kochman July 11, 2011 @8:48 p.m. (There are so many cruel things I could say here. That's how I've been getting affected by it lately; at a certain point, all you want to do is try to make people feel bad, and you don't even care who it is.)