July 12, 2011
THE “NO CODE” CLARIFICATIONS THAT I WROTE LAST NIGHT WERE IMPROMPTU AND WRITTEN OUT OF ANGER. I ALSO WROTE THEM TO PROTECT MYSELF FROM PEOPLE WHO HAVE BEEN VINDICTIVE TOWARD ME WHEN THEY HAVE FELT REJECTED BY ME.
I DON'T WANT TO SPEND ANY MORE TIME ON THAT TYPE OF CLARIFICATION. IF I PUT “CODE” AFTER SOMETHING THAT I'VE ORIGINALLY WRITTEN, OR IF I OTHERWISE INDICATE THE PRESENCE OF CODE BY STATING THAT I'M USING CODE AND THEN SAYING WHAT THE CODE IS, THEN THERE'S CODE THERE. IF I DON'T DO THAT, THEN THERE ISN'T CODE THERE.
AS FAR AS MY DESCRIPTIONS OF THINGS THAT I'VE SEEN OTHER PEOPLE SAY AND DO, MY THOUGHT IS THAT ALL I'M DOING IS REPORTING WHAT I SAW. IF I FEEL THAT I NEED TO OFFER ANALYSIS, I WILL, ALTHOUGH I OFTEN FEEL AS THOUGH I DON'T NEED TO DO THAT. I ALSO ALWAYS FEEL AS THOUGH I HAVE MORE TO DO THAN I CAN KEEP UP WITH, GIVEN MY LIMITED TIME ON THE INTERNET.
@9:04 p.m.
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July 12, 2011
--Tonight when I got back to the shelter, the shelter manager and her husband were here. A new box of “FLAGSHIP” paper was on the floor of the office, immediately inside the door where it could be seen by anybody who passed by the office. The manager's husband was wearing a shirt that had fish all over it, which was especially unpleasant considering that I wrote on Weebly last night about a much older man who had approached me at the Price Chopper wearing a sweatshirt that said “FISHERMAN” on it.
After the residents were allowed into the house, the manager yelled “If dinner doesn't show up in a few minutes, I'm going to order pizza.” Then she went into the kitchen and looked in the refrigerator. She yelled “Do people want leftover salad or do they want pizza?”
Yesterday, someone brought seafood salad to the shelter as a dinner donation, which few if any of the residents seemed to want. The same thing happened when I was at the state hospital. After a few months of the obsessed dietitian serving fish and cheese at every possible meal, one of the staff who was serving meals one day told me that nobody would take the sandwiches that the kitchen always sent as alternates to the regular meals if the sandwiches were tunafish. The way I found that out was that I asked what the sandwiches were for that meal, the staffperson looked in the bag that they were sent in and said “It's the dread one that nobody ever wants.” Then she showed me the sandwich in its package that said “Tuna” on it.
I had already requested that “No cheese and no fish” be put on my tray for any meals within the first month I was there, although I certainly had to deal with several meals in which that request was blatantly disregarded.
No matter what your motivation is, sexual harassment is inappropriate. Making sexual references when they are both unnecessary and unwanted, and especially singling someone out for abuse in the way that I've been singled out is all wrong. There's NO excuse for it.
Copyright L. Kochman July 12, 2011 @ 9:18 p.m.