October 7, 2011
2. Newblog2011: 10/07/11 "GARBER" truck in the middle of an intersection/goading by police/too much bullying/is it time to buy some Mace to use on non-police harassers, in order to avoid something worse?
I have a million things to do, and they’re all going to wait until I’ve said this:
I just walked from Boston to Cambridge, via Mass. Ave..
Vassar Street is the first cross street to Mass. Ave. after the main section of the MIT campus that is on Mass. Ave..
It is a 4-way intersection.
In the middle of the intersection, doing nothing but being in the middle of the intersection, motionless, there was a large, commercial truck that said “GARBER” on it in large letters. It had its yellow, “Caution” lights blinking.
There was a male police officer both in front and in back of the truck, directing traffic to go around the truck. The police officer in front of the truck was black, and the other one was white.
As I walked up Mass.Ave., the black police officer saw me and rubbed his nose.
I took out my tape recorder to talk into it about what was happening. I had to erase some other things I’d had it on it before, to create some time to make the recording. I turned away to do that; when I turned back, it was to see that the white police officer had gone to get his police car. He drove it up to the crosswalk across Vassar Street, in back of the truck.
As I walked across Vassar Street, I saw that there was already a police car parked alongside Vassar Street. The police car that had parked behind the crosswalk in the middle of Vassar Street was parallel with the police car that had already been there.
I’ve been getting upset with people on the street lately. A few days ago, I handwrote something that said “I’m on the verge of hitting someone because of being harassed. Maybe I should write online to tell people that, and to tell the owners of stores who put harassing displays in their windows or who do other harassing things that if they can't cover the cost of having their windows broken, they shouldn't harass me, either. I don't want to hit people or destroy property. I'm not writing this with any feeling of pride; it's truthful, that's all. I know what the limits of my self-control are, and I can't take anymore of this. Maybe I should tell people how I'm feeling, so that they won't push me any more past the limits of what I can handle." I wrote quite a bit and didn’t have the chance to put it online.
It was either yesterday or today that an older, white man that I walked by in Boston coughed loudly once I was a few feet in front of him. I turned back with my fist raised and said “I’m going to punch you right in the f---ing face.” He jumped and backed up. I said a few more things as he reached for the nearest front door of the nearest building, which happened to be a hotel. I said “Don’t you ever cough at me again; you stay the f--- away from me.”
Maybe a half hour later, I was walking along Mass. Ave., in Cambridge. I had just gone by 77 Mass. Ave., when I passed by 3 young, Asian or Asian American men. I heard a loud cough from one of them, and I turned around with my fist raised and said “Who wants it?” They also backed up. I looked at them and said “Which one of you wants to get punched in the f---ing face, because that’s what’s next.” They didn't say anything. I turned back in the direction I had been going and resumed my walk. I didn't hear anything from them after that.
It seems to me that a lot of the people who bully women do it because they never think that they, the bullies, will get the reaction that those men got from me in the past few days. It never occurs to them that they’ll get any reaction other than a high-pitched complaint from the woman, which they think that they can then laugh at.
I don’t want to hit people. I don’t want people trying to make me that angry.
Last week, I noticed how angry I was getting, and I started to try to warn a few people who harassed me, saying, in as friendly or at least neutral a tone as I could “I really can’t take any more of being harassed. I’m telling people now, that if they aren’t prepared for the possibility that I’m going to hit them, then they shouldn’t harass me.”
Since I am both female and not necessarily physically intimidating at first glance, it seems to me likely that there will be at least some men, and some women, who won’t worry about getting hit by me, who will read this and think “It would be worth it to harass her to see what she does. If she does hit me, it probably won’t hurt that much. If she hits me, even though I harassed her, I won’t get into any trouble for it, and it would give me and/or my friends an excuse to hit her. Even if I didn’t hit her back, it would make me famous to be hit by her, and it also might get me a lot of rewards from the conglomerate if I were the one to goad Lena into hitting me so that I could get her arrested and sent to jail for assault.”
Since I think that probably some people will think that way, I was thinking that maybe I should look into buying some Mace. For people who don’t know what Mace is; it has nothing to do with the Masons, it’s for self-defense. Here’s what the Wikipedia search result for it says:
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Mace (spray) - Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia
en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Mace_(spray)
Chemical Mace is a tear gas in the form of an aerosol spray which propels a ...
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October 7, 2011
It seems to me that my getting upset in the past few days hasn’t gone unnoticed by the conglomerate, and that perhaps an extra effort is being made to try to get me to do something in front of a police officer or to a police officer, so that the police can arrest me.
Copyright L. Kochman, October 7, 2011 @ 2:42 p.m.
2. Newblog2011: 10/07/11 "GARBER" truck in the middle of an intersection/goading by police/too much bullying/is it time to buy some Mace to use on non-police harassers, in order to avoid something worse?
I have a million things to do, and they’re all going to wait until I’ve said this:
I just walked from Boston to Cambridge, via Mass. Ave..
Vassar Street is the first cross street to Mass. Ave. after the main section of the MIT campus that is on Mass. Ave..
It is a 4-way intersection.
In the middle of the intersection, doing nothing but being in the middle of the intersection, motionless, there was a large, commercial truck that said “GARBER” on it in large letters. It had its yellow, “Caution” lights blinking.
There was a male police officer both in front and in back of the truck, directing traffic to go around the truck. The police officer in front of the truck was black, and the other one was white.
As I walked up Mass.Ave., the black police officer saw me and rubbed his nose.
I took out my tape recorder to talk into it about what was happening. I had to erase some other things I’d had it on it before, to create some time to make the recording. I turned away to do that; when I turned back, it was to see that the white police officer had gone to get his police car. He drove it up to the crosswalk across Vassar Street, in back of the truck.
As I walked across Vassar Street, I saw that there was already a police car parked alongside Vassar Street. The police car that had parked behind the crosswalk in the middle of Vassar Street was parallel with the police car that had already been there.
I’ve been getting upset with people on the street lately. A few days ago, I handwrote something that said “I’m on the verge of hitting someone because of being harassed. Maybe I should write online to tell people that, and to tell the owners of stores who put harassing displays in their windows or who do other harassing things that if they can't cover the cost of having their windows broken, they shouldn't harass me, either. I don't want to hit people or destroy property. I'm not writing this with any feeling of pride; it's truthful, that's all. I know what the limits of my self-control are, and I can't take anymore of this. Maybe I should tell people how I'm feeling, so that they won't push me any more past the limits of what I can handle." I wrote quite a bit and didn’t have the chance to put it online.
It was either yesterday or today that an older, white man that I walked by in Boston coughed loudly once I was a few feet in front of him. I turned back with my fist raised and said “I’m going to punch you right in the f---ing face.” He jumped and backed up. I said a few more things as he reached for the nearest front door of the nearest building, which happened to be a hotel. I said “Don’t you ever cough at me again; you stay the f--- away from me.”
Maybe a half hour later, I was walking along Mass. Ave., in Cambridge. I had just gone by 77 Mass. Ave., when I passed by 3 young, Asian or Asian American men. I heard a loud cough from one of them, and I turned around with my fist raised and said “Who wants it?” They also backed up. I looked at them and said “Which one of you wants to get punched in the f---ing face, because that’s what’s next.” They didn't say anything. I turned back in the direction I had been going and resumed my walk. I didn't hear anything from them after that.
It seems to me that a lot of the people who bully women do it because they never think that they, the bullies, will get the reaction that those men got from me in the past few days. It never occurs to them that they’ll get any reaction other than a high-pitched complaint from the woman, which they think that they can then laugh at.
I don’t want to hit people. I don’t want people trying to make me that angry.
Last week, I noticed how angry I was getting, and I started to try to warn a few people who harassed me, saying, in as friendly or at least neutral a tone as I could “I really can’t take any more of being harassed. I’m telling people now, that if they aren’t prepared for the possibility that I’m going to hit them, then they shouldn’t harass me.”
Since I am both female and not necessarily physically intimidating at first glance, it seems to me likely that there will be at least some men, and some women, who won’t worry about getting hit by me, who will read this and think “It would be worth it to harass her to see what she does. If she does hit me, it probably won’t hurt that much. If she hits me, even though I harassed her, I won’t get into any trouble for it, and it would give me and/or my friends an excuse to hit her. Even if I didn’t hit her back, it would make me famous to be hit by her, and it also might get me a lot of rewards from the conglomerate if I were the one to goad Lena into hitting me so that I could get her arrested and sent to jail for assault.”
Since I think that probably some people will think that way, I was thinking that maybe I should look into buying some Mace. For people who don’t know what Mace is; it has nothing to do with the Masons, it’s for self-defense. Here’s what the Wikipedia search result for it says:
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Mace (spray) - Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia
en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Mace_(spray)
Chemical Mace is a tear gas in the form of an aerosol spray which propels a ...
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October 7, 2011
It seems to me that my getting upset in the past few days hasn’t gone unnoticed by the conglomerate, and that perhaps an extra effort is being made to try to get me to do something in front of a police officer or to a police officer, so that the police can arrest me.
Copyright L. Kochman, October 7, 2011 @ 2:42 p.m.