THERE IS NO CODE INTENDED IN ANYTHING I WRITE HERE TODAY.
April 20, 2011 @ 9:50 a.m.
I don’t want to be discouraged. I’m looking at some of the job listings here and feel the same sense of dread that I have felt at other times when I've looked at that kind of thing. I feel as if I don’t have the qualifications for some of them, and then others I either know or suspect have been part of the harassment.
I had the same problem back in Burlington, from the summer of 2010 on.
I’m looking for a normal job. I can type, but I don’t feel as if I have the computer program knowledge to be an administrative assistant; I’m thinking that my skill level there is decades behind the times. I liked customer service for the many years I did that, but even if I can get a boss and coworkers who don’t start harassing me once I start working there, I can only imagine what that’s going to be like with people showing up to say things.
This is what I'm talking about when I say that just the opinion of people who call me horrible names doesn't matter to me; it's the fact that they make my life inconvenient, difficult or dangerous that matters and that is part of the reason that what's been happening is discrimination and harassment..
I guess, at this point, I don't really have any interest in seeing Barack Obama be President again.
Copyright April 20, 2011 @ 9:51 a.m.
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April 20, 2011 @ 12:26 p.m.
Yesterday, I contacted Weebly to ask if there’s a “search text” function that I could use to find various essays in my blog. This morning I got my answer; no, they don’t that that kind of function yet.
My blog is long, and many of the pages are titled just with the date on which I wrote or starting writing on those pages. I know that there are copies in my Weebly blog of the original essays about the Duke case that I wrote on Friendster last year; however, I don’t know which page the copies are on. I’ve found and corrected or deleted other things in my Weebly blog in the past few weeks by going through the blog page by page. I saved a lot of essays that I wrote on my computer at my parents’ house, and if I had my computer it would be easier to find a copy of those essays, but of course I wasn’t prepared to leave their house at all on the night in November that I left. I also haven’t spoken to my parents since that night.
One thing that I seem to remember from my original essays about the Duke case is that the test results that the DNA testing center produced claimed that DNA from up to 9 men had been identified in the samples taken from Ms. Mangum’s body, and that none of that DNA matched samples taken from any of the lacrosse players. There were 3 students that had been charged in the case.
There were also pictures taken of Ms. Mangum by members of the lacrosse team on the night when she claims she was raped. The pictures show her on the porch of the lacrosse house, standing with some of the students and smiling. The pictures had the times that they were taken printed on them, and were used by the defendants to try to prove that Ms. Mangum had been having a fine time at the house that night.
Some of the questions I asked when I first wrote about that case were these:
--How much time elapsed between the last picture taken of Ms. Mangum at the Duke lacrosse house and the moment when Ms. Mangum contacted the police and was taken to a hospital to be examined for rape?
--Was it enough time for Ms. Mangum to have had sex with 9 people?
If there wasn’t enough time to say, realistically, that Ms. Mangum had had sex with 9 people after she left the lacrosse house, and if she wasn’t raped by up to 9 members of the lacrosse team, and if the test result were accurate, that means that she must have had sex with up to 9 people before she went to the lacrosse house. If she’d had sex with 9 people or even with just 1 person in the days leading up to her going to strip at the lacrosse house, why wouldn’t she have taken a shower at least once before going to the lacrosse house to strip that night? Stripping may not be the most respected profession, but a major factor in the profession is looking good; I would think that most strippers would try to look their best when they go to work, and that involves the minimum effort of taking a shower before you leave your own house.
The fact that the number of DNA samples supposedly identified by the DNA testing center (up to 9) was much larger than the number of students who had been accused of rape (3) seemed to me even more supportive of the idea that the test result given by the testing center was false. What that test result said to me was that the parents who bought the testing center off or the testing center itself thought it would be especially convincing of the students’ innocence if the test result indicated that Ms. Mangum had had consensual sex with a particularly high number of people, none of whom were Duke students. It seems to me that the test result was meant to indicate that Ms. Mangum was an exceptionally promiscuous person in addition to being a liar.
If the testing center did give a deliberately false test result, then I think that the large discrepancy between the number of people accused of rape by Ms. Mangum and the number of separate DNA samples supposedly identified by the testing center is more indicative than not that Ms. Mangum was telling the truth.
Another thing that seemed likely to me about the Duke case when I first wrote about it was that the prosecutor, Michael Nifong, was wrongly accused of misconduct and that he was wrongly disbarred. Again, if I’m recalling correctly, he tried to stall for a while after he got the test result back from the DNA testing center. I think now, as I thought then, that he realized when he got the test result back that it was a false result, but that in the end he felt there was nothing he could do except to try to save himself a jail term by pleading guilty to misconduct even though he knew he was innocent of it.
To my mind, going after the prosecuting attorney is exactly the kind of thing that parents who would buy off a DNA testing center to get their guilty children acquitted would do. The idea would be to make an example out of anyone who tries to get justice for a victim of privileged people.
Copyright L. Kochman April 20, 2011 @ 12:34 p.m.
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((April 25, 2011 @ 8:46 a.m. (It is.)
I’ve removed what I originally wrote here, for the protection of the privacy and reputations of the youngest people involved.
Copyright L. Kochman April 25, 2011 @ 8:47 a.m. (That's what time it is.))
Oh look, I just made a revision; now it's 8:48 a.m. Sue me.
April 20, 2011 @ 9:50 a.m.
I don’t want to be discouraged. I’m looking at some of the job listings here and feel the same sense of dread that I have felt at other times when I've looked at that kind of thing. I feel as if I don’t have the qualifications for some of them, and then others I either know or suspect have been part of the harassment.
I had the same problem back in Burlington, from the summer of 2010 on.
I’m looking for a normal job. I can type, but I don’t feel as if I have the computer program knowledge to be an administrative assistant; I’m thinking that my skill level there is decades behind the times. I liked customer service for the many years I did that, but even if I can get a boss and coworkers who don’t start harassing me once I start working there, I can only imagine what that’s going to be like with people showing up to say things.
This is what I'm talking about when I say that just the opinion of people who call me horrible names doesn't matter to me; it's the fact that they make my life inconvenient, difficult or dangerous that matters and that is part of the reason that what's been happening is discrimination and harassment..
I guess, at this point, I don't really have any interest in seeing Barack Obama be President again.
Copyright April 20, 2011 @ 9:51 a.m.
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April 20, 2011 @ 12:26 p.m.
Yesterday, I contacted Weebly to ask if there’s a “search text” function that I could use to find various essays in my blog. This morning I got my answer; no, they don’t that that kind of function yet.
My blog is long, and many of the pages are titled just with the date on which I wrote or starting writing on those pages. I know that there are copies in my Weebly blog of the original essays about the Duke case that I wrote on Friendster last year; however, I don’t know which page the copies are on. I’ve found and corrected or deleted other things in my Weebly blog in the past few weeks by going through the blog page by page. I saved a lot of essays that I wrote on my computer at my parents’ house, and if I had my computer it would be easier to find a copy of those essays, but of course I wasn’t prepared to leave their house at all on the night in November that I left. I also haven’t spoken to my parents since that night.
One thing that I seem to remember from my original essays about the Duke case is that the test results that the DNA testing center produced claimed that DNA from up to 9 men had been identified in the samples taken from Ms. Mangum’s body, and that none of that DNA matched samples taken from any of the lacrosse players. There were 3 students that had been charged in the case.
There were also pictures taken of Ms. Mangum by members of the lacrosse team on the night when she claims she was raped. The pictures show her on the porch of the lacrosse house, standing with some of the students and smiling. The pictures had the times that they were taken printed on them, and were used by the defendants to try to prove that Ms. Mangum had been having a fine time at the house that night.
Some of the questions I asked when I first wrote about that case were these:
--How much time elapsed between the last picture taken of Ms. Mangum at the Duke lacrosse house and the moment when Ms. Mangum contacted the police and was taken to a hospital to be examined for rape?
--Was it enough time for Ms. Mangum to have had sex with 9 people?
If there wasn’t enough time to say, realistically, that Ms. Mangum had had sex with 9 people after she left the lacrosse house, and if she wasn’t raped by up to 9 members of the lacrosse team, and if the test result were accurate, that means that she must have had sex with up to 9 people before she went to the lacrosse house. If she’d had sex with 9 people or even with just 1 person in the days leading up to her going to strip at the lacrosse house, why wouldn’t she have taken a shower at least once before going to the lacrosse house to strip that night? Stripping may not be the most respected profession, but a major factor in the profession is looking good; I would think that most strippers would try to look their best when they go to work, and that involves the minimum effort of taking a shower before you leave your own house.
The fact that the number of DNA samples supposedly identified by the DNA testing center (up to 9) was much larger than the number of students who had been accused of rape (3) seemed to me even more supportive of the idea that the test result given by the testing center was false. What that test result said to me was that the parents who bought the testing center off or the testing center itself thought it would be especially convincing of the students’ innocence if the test result indicated that Ms. Mangum had had consensual sex with a particularly high number of people, none of whom were Duke students. It seems to me that the test result was meant to indicate that Ms. Mangum was an exceptionally promiscuous person in addition to being a liar.
If the testing center did give a deliberately false test result, then I think that the large discrepancy between the number of people accused of rape by Ms. Mangum and the number of separate DNA samples supposedly identified by the testing center is more indicative than not that Ms. Mangum was telling the truth.
Another thing that seemed likely to me about the Duke case when I first wrote about it was that the prosecutor, Michael Nifong, was wrongly accused of misconduct and that he was wrongly disbarred. Again, if I’m recalling correctly, he tried to stall for a while after he got the test result back from the DNA testing center. I think now, as I thought then, that he realized when he got the test result back that it was a false result, but that in the end he felt there was nothing he could do except to try to save himself a jail term by pleading guilty to misconduct even though he knew he was innocent of it.
To my mind, going after the prosecuting attorney is exactly the kind of thing that parents who would buy off a DNA testing center to get their guilty children acquitted would do. The idea would be to make an example out of anyone who tries to get justice for a victim of privileged people.
Copyright L. Kochman April 20, 2011 @ 12:34 p.m.
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((April 25, 2011 @ 8:46 a.m. (It is.)
I’ve removed what I originally wrote here, for the protection of the privacy and reputations of the youngest people involved.
Copyright L. Kochman April 25, 2011 @ 8:47 a.m. (That's what time it is.))
Oh look, I just made a revision; now it's 8:48 a.m. Sue me.